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ONLINE COURSE - HEALING GRIEF THROUGH MUSIC

by Judy Unger

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Lesson 1 - So Real 16:23
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SO REAL This morning when I woke up it slipped my mind You are not here with me anymore I smiled when I thought of your gentle, warm laughter And dreamt of my next carefree moment with you It all seemed so real; it all seemed so real Until I remembered, I thought it was real Here I could feel; here I could feel Until I remembered, your absence was real This morning when I woke up it slipped my mind You are not here with me anymore There were so many things I wanted to tell you I thought it could wait; there was plenty of time, ‘cause It all seemed so real; it all seemed so real Until I remembered, I thought it was real Here I could feel; here I could feel Until I remembered, your absence was real This morning when I woke up I felt you close by I still heard your voice and my heart felt so full Then I recalled all the things that had happened The moment was gone dreaming you might be there I opened my eyes; the anguish overwhelmed me I closed them again and I pictured your soul soaring free It all seemed so real; it all seemed so real I know it’s because, I just wished it were real All I could feel, all I could feel was my pain Oh, how I wish you were real
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Lesson 2 - Every Season 16:06
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EVERY SEASON You always return on an April breeze With fragrance of jasmine and crimson oak trees The seasons, they just move go on And my mind knows that you’re gone With autumn’s cold you never grow old With winter’s chill I miss you still As the season changes my heart rearranges When you left I always knew Forever I’d long for you, but I’ve held on to your memory And my sadness will always be Every season you come back to me You always return with a starry night sky A warm, golden sunrise; a bright butterfly I’m reminded you are free for all eternity When fall would come, for years I was numb My tears fell like rain, but spring thawed my pain As the seasons go by, the memories don’t die When you left, from life I withdrew And a piece of my soul died, too Life and death are a mystery And my sadness will always be Every season you come back to me
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Lesson 3 - Beside Me Always 17:06
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BESIDE ME ALWAYS I’ll search the shrouded darkness wanting you, and nothing less Seems my whole life I’ve waited for darkness that was fated I’ll live within my broken heart though you're gone, we're not apart All the memories leave me haunted you’re all I’ve ever wanted When my tears are flowing and I'm not sure where I’m going I feel your love then you’re beside me always In the breeze that’s blowing you surround me in a breeze that’s blowing I know that I will still exist longing for the soul I’ve kissed I dream of you in a distant sky the breeze it comforts while I cry When my tears are flowing and I'm not sure where I’m going I feel your love then you’re beside me always In the breeze that’s blowing you surround me in a breeze that’s blowing I hear you tell me, When your tears are flowing and you’re not sure where you’re going just feel my love, I’m beside you always in the breeze that’s blowing, I’ll surround you in a breeze that’s blowing I’ll surround you in a breeze I’m always beside you
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Lesson 4 - Hang On 17:15
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HANG ON It feels so dark; the sky is gray Nothing to live for, you cannot pray You have no hope; is this the end? Just take my hand; I’ll be your friend I’ve been there, too, I must explain Because I’ve suffered I feel your pain You don’t know how you will survive You even wonder why you’re alive Hang on love is never gone Though it feels like night, let love shine a light One day, your pain will go away Love will lift you up; love will always stay Your eyes show your heart is broken There’s so much pain it’s unspoken But without hope, it’s crushed your soul There was no reason and no control Just hang on; strength can be drawn Though you are numb, do not succumb One day, your pain will go away Love will lift you up; ‘cause love will always stay I wish there was an end to pain Then just love would remain Hang on for a day will dawn Different than before, but you’ll smile once more On that day, your pain has gone away Love lifted you up; you’ll be okay Hang on . . . Hang on . . . Hang on . . .
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Lesson 5 - Set You Free 17:38
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SET YOU FREE You’re hanging on as night turns to dawn I know you can’t stay and soon you’ll be gone we both know it’s hard to let go; wherever you are my love won’t be far your smile, your touch, your voice, your face; your essence I will never replace though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free There is no fear and your leaving is clear we’ll still have our love it remains with each tear I cry as you leave, though I truly believe as you leave my sight we’ll both be all right your smile, your touch, your voice, your face; your essence I will never replace though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free though you have flown to somewhere unknown we’re never apart; you’re here in my heart your smile, your touch, your voice, your face; your essence I will never replace though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free
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Lesson 6 - It's Not Forever 14:04
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IT’S NOT FOREVER You say your pain will always be there and every day is a nightmare I remember so well Living with that kind of hell It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change I once felt that way Today I see Hope carried me After he left, your life was shattered he was all that mattered When life seems unreal It’s hard to imagine you could heal It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change Time could not sever my love Today I see Love carried me A long time ago I felt hopeless but I know It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change Time could not sever my love Today I see you carried me
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Lesson 7 - Somewhere I Can't See 16:52
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SOMEWHERE I CAN’T SEE Everything that I have gone through led me to this place Even though my heart’s been broken with all I’ve had to face I will shine through my pain, even in darkness I refuse to give in to bitterness A fire once burned through my soul, it left me scarred and sad My tears could easily fill an ocean, but love was what I had I didn’t want losing you to tear me apart I was blessed to be healed Your love filled my heart I hold on to love that’s in my memory You’re not gone; you’re somewhere I can’t see I won’t drown in misery ‘cause your love rescues me Your love rescues me Every challenge just reminds me hold on to each day No matter where my journey leads me, love will guide my way I will climb through the clouds up into the sky With every beat and every breath I’ll love until I die I hold on to the love that heals me You’re not gone; you’re somewhere I can’t see I won’t drown in misery ‘cause your love rescues me Your love rescues me, rescues me
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Lesson 8 - Clear 15:58
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CLEAR Not long ago I was a child, then a young girl, And now I'm even older A woman so wise, but I realize My life went by quickly, I blinked my eyes When I grew up, I became sad Life beat me down; I felt broken Though it may seem a little extreme I turned my life around, to follow my dream I carried on; I lived with heartache I was so numb; I wasn’t awake It all changed, when I let go of fear Beautiful music I could hear I opened my eyes, life became clear As I grow old, I’ll keep my smile All of my tears, gave me compassion I was asleep; my pain was so deep I turned my life around; with joy I now weep I carried on, but inside I wept I cried for losses I could not accept It all changed, when I let go of fear Beautiful music I could hear I opened my eyes, life became clear I celebrate; it wasn’t too late I turned my life around No reason to wait I carried on; I lived with heartache I was so numb; I wasn’t awake It all changed, when I let go of fear Beautiful music I could hear I opened my eyes, life became clear When my life ends, I won’t be afraid I'm grateful for the gift I was given I celebrate; it wasn’t too late I turned my life around; got up off the ground Happiness I found; there was no reason to wait
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Lesson 9 - My Shining Star 17:46
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MY SHINING STAR Shining star so bright you wink to me every night moonlight glows upon my bed I hear your voice inside my head Shining star so bright surround me with your lovely light I reach for you in my sleep you comfort me while I weep In my heart you will stay I’ll hold onto our dream forever the stars above, remind me of our love each and every day, wherever you are you’re my shining star Shining star so bright even though you’re not in sight with my eyes closed, your breath I feel you whisper in my ear to heal In my heart you will stay I’ll hold onto our dream forever the stars above, remind me of our love each and every day, wherever you are you’re my shining star so bright I’ll dream of you tonight In my heart you will stay I’ll hold onto our dream forever the stars above, remind me of our love each and every day, wherever you are you’re my shining star
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Lesson 10 - The Key 19:05
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THE KEY After you left I was locked away In a prison of grief; I cried every day I couldn’t escape and years went by I accepted my prison and stopped asking why When I saw the key, I couldn’t believe The prison doors opened; I could leave I lost what I loved; grief swallowed me Until the day I found the key I let myself out; life wasn’t the same I slowly adjusted, but whispered your name I tried to forget all I went through But I never let go of my love for you When I saw the key, I couldn’t believe The prison doors opened; and I could leave I never dreamed that I’d be free But then one day, I found the key When I saw the key, I couldn’t believe The prison doors opened; I could leave What I loved most was taken from me But you came back to give me the key
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So Real - Acoustic Song 03:55
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SO REAL This morning when I woke up it slipped my mind You are not here with me anymore I smiled when I thought of your gentle, warm laughter And dreamt of my next carefree moment with you It all seemed so real; it all seemed so real Until I remembered, I thought it was real Here I could feel; here I could feel Until I remembered, your absence was real This morning when I woke up it slipped my mind You are not here with me anymore There were so many things I wanted to tell you I thought it could wait; there was plenty of time, ‘cause It all seemed so real; it all seemed so real Until I remembered, I thought it was real Here I could feel; here I could feel Until I remembered, your absence was real This morning when I woke up I felt you close by I still heard your voice and my heart felt so full Then I recalled all the things that had happened The moment was gone dreaming you might be there I opened my eyes; the anguish overwhelmed me I closed them again and I pictured your soul soaring free It all seemed so real; it all seemed so real I know it’s because, I just wished it were real All I could feel, all I could feel was my pain Oh, how I wish you were real
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Every Season - Acoustic Song 04:27
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EVERY SEASON You always return on an April breeze With fragrance of jasmine and crimson oak trees The seasons, they just move go on And my mind knows that you’re gone With autumn’s cold you never grow old With winter’s chill I miss you still As the season changes my heart rearranges When you left I always knew Forever I’d long for you, but I’ve held on to your memory And my sadness will always be Every season you come back to me You always return with a starry night sky A warm, golden sunrise; a bright butterfly I’m reminded you are free for all eternity When fall would come, for years I was numb My tears fell like rain, but spring thawed my pain As the seasons go by, the memories don’t die When you left, from life I withdrew And a piece of my soul died, too Life and death are a mystery And my sadness will always be Every season you come back to me
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Beside Me Always - Acoustic Song 04:24
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BESIDE ME ALWAYS I’ll search the shrouded darkness wanting you, and nothing less Seems my whole life I’ve waited for darkness that was fated I’ll live within my broken heart though you're gone, we're not apart All the memories leave me haunted you’re all I’ve ever wanted When my tears are flowing and I'm not sure where I’m going I feel your love then you’re beside me always In the breeze that’s blowing you surround me in a breeze that’s blowing I know that I will still exist longing for the soul I’ve kissed I dream of you in a distant sky the breeze it comforts while I cry When my tears are flowing and I'm not sure where I’m going I feel your love then you’re beside me always In the breeze that’s blowing you surround me in a breeze that’s blowing I hear you tell me, When your tears are flowing and you’re not sure where you’re going just feel my love, I’m beside you always in the breeze that’s blowing, I’ll surround you in a breeze that’s blowing I’ll surround you in a breeze I’m always beside you
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Hang On - Acoustic Song 04:16
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HANG ON It feels so dark; the sky is gray Nothing to live for, you cannot pray You have no hope; is this the end? Just take my hand; I’ll be your friend I’ve been there, too, I must explain Because I’ve suffered I feel your pain You don’t know how you will survive You even wonder why you’re alive Hang on love is never gone Though it feels like night, let love shine a light One day, your pain will go away Love will lift you up; love will always stay Your eyes show your heart is broken There’s so much pain it’s unspoken But without hope, it’s crushed your soul There was no reason and no control Just hang on; strength can be drawn Though you are numb, do not succumb One day, your pain will go away Love will lift you up; ‘cause love will always stay I wish there was an end to pain Then just love would remain Hang on for a day will dawn Different than before, but you’ll smile once more On that day, your pain has gone away Love lifted you up; you’ll be okay Hang on . . . Hang on . . . Hang on . . .
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Set You Free - Acoustic Song 04:21
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SET YOU FREE You’re hanging on as night turns to dawn I know you can’t stay and soon you’ll be gone we both know it’s hard to let go; wherever you are my love won’t be far your smile, your touch, your voice, your face; your essence I will never replace though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free There is no fear and your leaving is clear we’ll still have our love it remains with each tear I cry as you leave, though I truly believe as you leave my sight we’ll both be all right your smile, your touch, your voice, your face; your essence I will never replace though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free though you have flown to somewhere unknown we’re never apart; you’re here in my heart your smile, your touch, your voice, your face; your essence I will never replace though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free
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It's Not Forever - Acoustic Song 04:02
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IT’S NOT FOREVER You say your pain will always be there and every day is a nightmare I remember so well Living with that kind of hell It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change I once felt that way Today I see Hope carried me After he left, your life was shattered he was all that mattered When life seems unreal It’s hard to imagine you could heal It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change Time could not sever my love Today I see Love carried me A long time ago I felt hopeless but I know It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change Time could not sever my love Today I see you carried me
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Somewhere I Can't See - Acoustic Song 03:47
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SOMEWHERE I CAN’T SEE Everything that I have gone through led me to this place Even though my heart’s been broken with all I’ve had to face I will shine through my pain, even in darkness I refuse to give in to bitterness A fire once burned through my soul, it left me scarred and sad My tears could easily fill an ocean, but love was what I had I didn’t want losing you to tear me apart I was blessed to be healed Your love filled my heart I hold on to love that’s in my memory You’re not gone; you’re somewhere I can’t see I won’t drown in misery ‘cause your love rescues me Your love rescues me Every challenge just reminds me hold on to each day No matter where my journey leads me, love will guide my way I will climb through the clouds up into the sky With every beat and every breath I’ll love until I die I hold on to the love that heals me You’re not gone; you’re somewhere I can’t see I won’t drown in misery ‘cause your love rescues me Your love rescues me, rescues me
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Clear - Acoustic Song 04:15
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CLEAR Not long ago I was a child, then a young girl, And now I'm even older A woman so wise, but I realize My life went by quickly, I blinked my eyes When I grew up, I became sad Life beat me down; I felt broken Though it may seem a little extreme I turned my life around, to follow my dream I carried on; I lived with heartache I was so numb; I wasn’t awake It all changed, when I let go of fear Beautiful music I could hear I opened my eyes, life became clear As I grow old, I’ll keep my smile All of my tears, gave me compassion I was asleep; my pain was so deep I turned my life around; with joy I now weep I carried on, but inside I wept I cried for losses I could not accept It all changed, when I let go of fear Beautiful music I could hear I opened my eyes, life became clear I celebrate; it wasn’t too late I turned my life around No reason to wait I carried on; I lived with heartache I was so numb; I wasn’t awake It all changed, when I let go of fear Beautiful music I could hear I opened my eyes, life became clear When my life ends, I won’t be afraid I'm grateful for the gift I was given I celebrate; it wasn’t too late I turned my life around; got up off the ground Happiness I found; there was no reason to wait
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My Shining Star - Acoustic Song 03:41
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MY SHINING STAR Shining star so bright you wink to me every night moonlight glows upon my bed I hear your voice inside my head Shining star so bright surround me with your lovely light I reach for you in my sleep you comfort me while I weep In my heart you will stay I’ll hold onto our dream forever the stars above, remind me of our love each and every day, wherever you are you’re my shining star Shining star so bright even though you’re not in sight with my eyes closed, your breath I feel you whisper in my ear to heal In my heart you will stay I’ll hold onto our dream forever the stars above, remind me of our love each and every day, wherever you are you’re my shining star so bright I’ll dream of you tonight In my heart you will stay I’ll hold onto our dream forever the stars above, remind me of our love each and every day, wherever you are you’re my shining star
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The Key - Acoustic Song 04:07
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THE KEY After you left I was locked away In a prison of grief; I cried every day I couldn’t escape and years went by I accepted my prison and stopped asking why When I saw the key, I couldn’t believe The prison doors opened; I could leave I lost what I loved; grief swallowed me Until the day I found the key I let myself out; life wasn’t the same I slowly adjusted, but whispered your name I tried to forget all I went through But I never let go of my love for you When I saw the key, I couldn’t believe The prison doors opened; and I could leave I never dreamed that I’d be free But then one day, I found the key When I saw the key, I couldn’t believe The prison doors opened; I could leave What I loved most was taken from me But you came back to give me the key

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"Healing Grief Through Music,” is meant to be an uplifting course.

I don’t see grief as a subject to be taught; it’s a very lonely journey. For anyone grieving, I want to offer understanding, comfort and most importantly, hope. My course will also give people on Insight Timer a chance to connect with others who are grieving. There can be great comfort by sharing your experiences.

After my five-year-old son Jason died, I didn’t imagine I would ever sing again. I didn’t believe healing was possible. But healing is a word that fits well for grief. It’s not about getting over it,” or “moving on.” Grief is life changing. I see healing as reaching a place where the gaping wound isn’t bleeding anymore. There’s definitely a scar and when I lost Jason, I called it “the amputation of my soul.”

I don’t believe in comparing grief. Anyone is welcome here and I’m hoping you can relate to many of the feelings I’ve gone through.

I began my journey of healing in 2010 by expressing my grief and writing the story of my son, Jason’s life and death. Once I opened up through writing, music entered my life and brought me joy after 30 years of silence.

I often see my lyrics as my bible. Each week for this workshop, I am going to share my insights related to a certain song of mine that led to healing. I will start with songs expressing my deepest anguish. Then I’ll share songs expressing love, despite my grief. For later weeks, I will share the songs that were transformative and gave me courage to change my life. And before the end of this workshop, I will discuss songs that celebrate healing and hope.

Please join me for this workshop. It would mean so much if you are able to find comfort, hope and healing through my stories, music and words.

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Judy Unger Los Angeles, California

I have been an artist all of her life. Although I played classical guitar in college, I left music behind when I was 21. 30 years later, I began writing songs to help me cope with the challenges in my life. Many of my songs are dedicated to my son, Jason, who died in 1992. I love to inspire hope of healing with my music, because my songs have certainly healed me of any pain. ... more

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